HEALTHYSELF

What do I see in the title phrase? Healthy Self and heal thy self. I am getting to know thy (read my) self to get out of this situation which keeps repeating itself again and again, like a vicious cycle. People ask "How did I get into this situation?" and make comments like "You don't look like you are suffering from depression.". Unless one is aware of what depression is, it is rather difficult to explain as words cannot describe it all, this feeling.

But along the way, I have found that I need to heal myself. Medication just cannot do it. Medication dulls the mind, makes me tired all the time, makes me forgetful. I want to go back to basics, go back to nature, go back to who I really am. Working with nature, living life simply, ridding my body of chemicals which seem to "treat" the brain.

Last night, I attended a talk by a self proclaimed healer and she said the same things I believe in. Healing has to start with myself. I cannot depend on others. I have to call on nature and invoke the power of the universe. But even at the talk, there were skeptics, there were those who do not understand the meaning of "soul", who only look at life situations as problems they wish someone could help them with.

And all the time, we were talking about timeless time, subtle energies, conscious and unconscious. Whether everything was fully understood, I do not know because at the end, it got kind of ugly with questions hurled at the healer. Jesus once said "You too can be like me." but how many truly listened? The body is God itself. Let the body heal itself. However, we have to be aware of it all, accept it all and surrender to God (our true self which we have lost connection with).

Pain Body Activated, Aches & Pains All Over

The last few days have been agonizing for my body at least. Aches and pains of all kinds at all my limbs. I slapped them, whacked them, meditated on them, talked to them, to ask why they were there. I need to go back to nature, to my garden, to eating healthily. Go back to some form of macrobiotic food with homegrown vegetables.

I have been watching myself moving from emotion to emotion, from thought to thought. It is amazing how the pain body works. It confuses me, leads me on, gets me isolated. It takes a lot of awareness to pull back and pull together.

Last night I did crystal healing with rose quartz and clear crystal. The rose quartz helped remove some of the aches and pains and stabilized me.