Emmanuel's Book II ~ The Choice for Love

Another beautiful book about being our true selves.
I am a Love and Light being.

I receive Love and Light in abundance

and I radiate Love and Light everywhere I go and to everyone I meet

so that there is more Love and Light circulating on Planet Earth

among all living things and the humankind.

I feel blissful that I found these 2 books which teaches what all the wise ones (aka the Ascended Masters, Teachers, Prophets) have taught.  They made me realize that I am so blessed to be aware, to have met the late Shihan Goh who taught the same things.

The teachings are so simple yet the world is undergoing lots of fear ~ fear of death, fear of illness, fear of war, fear of lacking, fear of others, fear of being converted, fear of being killed, fear of being ostracized.  All sorts of fears.  These fears can be overcome by Love and Light, just as the body can heal itself with acceptance.

Emmanuel's Book ~ a manual for living comfortably in the cosmos

I found this jewel of a book from MBPJ Library 10 days ago and find it very healing.  I understand what is written and will try my level best to apply what is written (which I actually already know deep inside).

We are all one with God.

We are all light beings.

We are all here to learn and experience life as a human being, in a physical body.

We are here to remember what we have forgotten.

We are here to forget what we are taught and conditioned.

After the Retreat...

I remember my earth walk and the meditations we all did at Maranatha.

I remember the friends I met, especially the ladies of Ipoh.
I remember Father Paul Vaz.

I remember the good meals.

I remember having a good cry and many laughters.

I remember the dance we all did after we all got our gifts from Father.

I remember Nature's Orchestra.

I remember the frogs in the pond.

I remember the cross in the chapel.

I do the body sensation meditation everyday.

I do the Centering Meditation to energize my chakras with the Lord's Prayer.

I do an earth walk whenever I feel the need to do so.

I go to my place of comfort everytime I feel I need the comfort.

I meet my guardian angel there who brings me into the mountains.

Maranatha Retreat ~ Healing the Whole Person

Day 1 ~ I carried my cross up Mt Calvary.

Day 2 ~ My stone heart opened up.

Day 3 ~ I rose from the dead, renewed.

That summarizes the silent retreat over the weekend.  I look to my spirit friends in nature.  I love the trees, the breeze, the caterpillars, the earthworms.

Feeling So Intense and Full of Resistance

It has been a rough ride since February 16 when I suffered a meltdown.  Most of the time, the thoughts are negative and reactive.  There is so much tension in me, the body is in constant pain (sour pain).  My ego gives rise to my pain body.  But being out alone gives me some sense of space to write what I feel.

Derrick understands what I am going through and he says to just watch and feel it.  And after each storm, there is a calm.  It is so strange that even without any triggers, I get all worked up with a lot of complaints in the mind, like "why no one helps in the house?", "why the boys have to mess up the place?", "why I have to do all the work?"  It is just so negative but I cannot stop it.  Resistance is futile.  So I just watch and feel the thoughts and emotions.  There is just too much past pain in me, and my ego and pain body are just waiting for the moment to get me all worked up for nothing.

I will continue to tell myself that "I AM a flame of Violet fire, I AM the purity God desires." and ask for guidance from God, the Transcended Masters, the Archangels, my guides.

Reconnecting to my Spirit

I was so lost in my life, misled by my enormous ego and her friend the pain body.  I was so confused, so unhappy with who I have become.  I searched and searched for answers in books and websites.  Every book and website I was guided to said the following :-

Accept what is.

Resist nothing.

Surrender to what is.

Watch the thoughts.

See how the ego reacts to situations.

See how the pain body reacts to other pain bodies.

Go beyond the pain and suffering.

Go deep into the self, into the inner being.

Be still and know that I AM God.

I AM love and light.

I am now friendly with the present, with the ego and with the pain body.  I flow with the tide, not against it.

I AM love and light.  May the Archangels protect and guide me as I continue with my journey.