Going from Up to Down and Up again

Each month (even each day), I experience the ups and downs like a yoyo. I see myself going from normal to high to low so often that it seems like part of me. Of course, reading Osho books make me realize that this is what my first self (aka ego) is all about, my personality. I see me reacting to stuff. I start the day on facebook (ego), do the house chores which can be very meditative. Then I tend to my garden and fish, nature heals. At times, I get over confident (manic) and it is pretty scary. It is like there are 2 or 3 of me, in different parts of the day or month.

I have been cooking meals for my family and I find cooking quite therapeutic. But then most evenings, after a long day, I tend to get upset with my family easily. There is an expectation that family members chip in whenever they can. There is a feeling that I am taken for granted. I get angry, and then I break down in tears. The whole house emanates with a negative charge when I get into that mode. Fortunately I get out of that mode fast.