Coming back out again

After a couple of weeks of anxiety and despair, I am finally out of it again.  I survived another mental ordeal!  The cycle is once again complete.  How did I do it this time?  I allowed the anxiety, pain and despair to be.  I watched it and there were times when I thought I was losing it.  But I hung on and soon the negative clouds of thoughts floated away.

I was like two persons, fighting each other in the head.  You know, like the cartoons you watch on TV with the Angel and the Devil on the right and left shoulders.

Then I got to reading Paulo Coelho's The Alchemist which reminded me to listen to my heart.  Somehow, I stopped listening to my heart and just listened to my head.  I paid attention to my heart and the acceptance set in quickly.  The resistance went away.  Faith set in.