I started on the downhill after seeing the doctor at UMMC. She posed questions about my past as with the other psychotherapy session with her, and then concluded that I do not have the regular form of depression. She said that I tend to get upset and angry when things are not going my way. It's got to do with my coping mechanism.
Is this how psychiatrists and psychologists are supposed to do? So where do I go from here? It's like I am on my own, which I am by the way. Just because I do not fit into the normal form of depression, it is now my coping mechanism.
Well, let me let them know that, yes, I understand it is the way I think and process information. It is the way I deal with issues after bearing with it. I do not get upset at every opportunity. I am happy with what I have, what I am. But when one goes downhill, all these feedback do not help one who is suffering from anguish. It is mental torture. One cannot just switch off.
Indeed, it is a great resolve of such difficulty. I feel so lost yet I know I will get out of this black hole, most of the time without the help of the doctors. I heal myself over time. Not the sessions with them, not with the medication. On my own in time.
