Honestly, I do count my blessings, no matter how small. I love my family and my family loves me which is most important. I have a nice home. I have a nice garden - heck, I spend a lot of time on it. I have a nice DIY fish pond in my backyard which is a joy to look at - 4 goldfishes, 2 ketutu (soon hock/marbled goby), a catfish, some longkang fish. The trickling water creates a peaceful sound.
Of course, I do get negative often with low moods. The doctor says it is my personality. Well, some people are born happy. They are always happy. Some people are born crappy. They are always snappy. However, I now choose to be who I am - happy, crappy, snappy, positive, negative. I am the Tao. One cannot be positive all the time. There are always 2 sides to a coin but the sides are equal, balanced. There is day and there is night. It just so happens.
Thanks to all those who have been helpful in their own ways.
